This will be a short entry.
I wanted to say that I had lost my best friend to cancer and I am grieving.
Thoughts on every single memory I had with her for the past 38 years will make my eyes tear, and my heart tight, pain, and heavy-laden. It is like I have lost a limb; mostly, the indescribable pain followed by that numbness and the subsequent realisation that you may not function how you’ve been functioning before that loss.
I asked myself, how can I cope with it and move on with life?
I tried googling for ‘ways to cope with the death of a loved one’, and trust me when I say they have got 101 ways of doing so, but none of it actually made sense to me.
I put on a facade when I tell friends I am okay but am I really okay?
Hold it, Thea. What is the rush?
You cannot take away that pain from the loss of a great friend of 38 years with strategies from google just like that, can you? It has only been two days since her passing.
I need to acknowledge my feelings and give me some time to grieve, do I not?
Remember that losing someone you love is a personal experience. No one person can tell you what to do to cope better, and no one activity can magically take away your pain at a push of a button. What works for one may not work for others. The more you resist and try to get past that grieving stage, the longer you take to heal.
The cortège leaves tomorrow morning, so let me grieve for now.
